I'm too young to be thinking about kids - nor do I want them anytime soon - but if and when I'm a mother I'm making a promise to myself (and my future kids) here and now that I'm going to be the best damn mother I can be. I'm not going to choke them with opression and insecurities the way I was choked. I know many of you reading this know me as the girl who wore whatever she wanted...but there's so much more to that which I never speak about. It's a river that runs deep, but I'm not getting into that here. And besides, that's not the purpose of this entry.
The point is, if I have children, I'm going to hug them and kiss them and tell them that I am so completely and fully proud of them. I'm going to encourage them to follow their dreams, love fully, and never be afraid to be themselves. I will read them stories, play a wide variety of music for them and encourage them to discover their gifts and nourish them regularly. If they want to write, I'll lead them to paper and a pen. If they're interested in astromony, I will show them the moon and the stars. If they feel like having a green mohawk, who am I to stand in their way?
I will NEVER make my children feel like their needs are second to my own, nor will I make them feel like they're my Barbie doll or my project. I will make them feel like valuable human beings who deserve the best in the world. And I will hope that they don't settle for crap.
I promise myself and I promise them that they will be loved for who they are - not for who I "want" them to be. And I will not reject them or make them feel worthless if/when they trip and fall.